Sunday, April 18, 2010

Tuesday, 930am

No change. As in, nothing is happening.

I don't feel pregnant. Or hopeful.

On the other hand, I have no miscarriage symptoms.

My third miscarriage, I made it this far. We saw a heartbeat. Believed we were in the clear. Went back for a routine ultrasound. No more heartbeat.

There is something to be said for miscarrying before there's a heartbeat.

Now it's Sunday night and I don't know what to hope for; could this be the fluke? The miracle?

I just can't believe my efficient and talented body wouldn't have miscarried a pregnancy if it ended at 5 or 6 weeks.

I'm 8 weeks.

I called the doc. Tuesday, 930am is the viability ultrasound.

-- Post From My iPhone


Vanessa said...

I have been following your blog for a little while now as my son Christopher had VACTERL.

I am also 8 weeks pregnant (after 2 previous m/c in a row) and I feel your anxiety. Oh how I feel your anxiety!

I hope with all my might that your viability ultrasound is positive and that you see a strong heartbeat and a healthy baby.


Robyn said...

I don't know what the right thing to say is. Please just know that I am thinking of you and I love you.

Shannon said...

I also don't really know what to say...other than I love you and know whatever happens, you will be ok.

SaRaH said...

I want to be put into a voluntary coma until 9:30 tomorrow. Maybe we could do it together. Maybe they could mani/pedi/exfoliate/moisturize us while we're under. My thoughts and heart are with you waiting.

pattinase (abbott) said...

The cliched fingers crossed is not enough.

Jacque said...

Praying for a miracle for you. ((HUGS))

Hef said...

I'll be thinking about you all day tomorrow, love.

Tiffany said...

Thinking of you today!